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(Translated and arranged by Saya)
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| An old creepy poster for a tranquilizer lol |
This is a story that was posted on the website of Dr.Hayashi, a well-known psychiatrist on the internet.
πSee also this post "Stalker in the House" which is another famous case Dr. Hayashi publishes on his site.
【0869】 Telepathy from Great Commander Syndrome
Question:
I'm female, 27 years old.
In the case【0580】where the patient experienced her body move on its own as if it was being pulled by strings, Dr. Hayashi answered it was a forced experience.....
I assume that you said it from a standpoint of medical science, but you are wrong. I'm sending you this mail in the hope that I might impart the right kind of knowledge to everyone....
That was telepathy from Great Commander Syndrome.
It resolutely controls one's eye movement and actions.
In fact, it orders you just like the radio or TV, or the broadcasting tower inside your brain.
I too was acting as a leader of a volunteering activity,
but it often interrupted cigarrette butts, empty cans and commander.
If you interfer so much, why don't you do it yourself! I told them.
It's dangerous to be commanded all the time.
But it is possible to change the other's mind.
Everyone gets panicky and probably doesn't have it in them to notice this.
Really, if this state continues even for three days you become exhausted.
But.....
I made effort.
The medicine for Schizophrenia is designed to numb your brain.
But when I kept taking the medicine I couldn't do house chores or look after my children or go to work because of the side effects.....
I was not needed. That broke me down even more....
One day I made a decision...
That I will control the voices and return to work....
At the time, my brain was in such a condition that it couldn't perform even the simplest mathematical calculation....
That was a side effect of the medicine....
However I had a strong will and stopped taking the medicine...
Should I live in the world of side effects? Can I do the things I want to do?
I chose the things I want to do.
Thanks to that, the quality is different but I've had the same symptons since my childhood.
This time, it was the strongest electric shock reponse conversation.
By showing the other different screens.....
By listening to it, and by talking to it...
We have looked at each other's heart....
And now, at last....
The harassment stopped.
The presences have all become kinder....
According to the voices.....
"We thought love was hatred but love is kindness"....
Of course, the will of Great Commander Syndrome has completely vanished too...
I will not be led astray by the voice of Great Commander Syndrome anymore!
I am reporting the result of accepting the mind as mind.
Now, the voices are very chatty, and at night
they come to me and say,
"Please listen to me talk. Please listen to me talk."
So, in order to sleep, I take things like Amoban, Lendormin, Deazepam and Depas.**
Everytime I hear the word "I'm glad I met you," from them, I feel peace returning to me.
I finally understand that this is exactly how it is like for Schizopphrenia to be reunited.
Please doctor, I beg you, you mustn't be bound by the prejudices of medical science, and please spread the word around the country that there is a way to cure this illness by this kind of method.
Dr Hayashi's reply:
Your illness is getting worse.
It is because you have stopped taking the medication.
If you go on as you are, you will be in great danger.
Please start taking the medication again, and let your doctor know about your present condition.
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** Those are all the names are of sleeping pills or tranquilizers.
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I have nothing against mental illnesses! I wanted to translate this story because it's famous and it has become part of the Japanese internet urban legends now!π✨⭐
Comments
But it is better to have mental health awareness raised than to ignore it like how society is usually.
I don't have voices telling me what to do, but I do constantly need to take sleeping pills to be able to sleep at night :(
If you're wondering why. Well **points at everything that is happening in the world that somehow impacts all of our lives**
Thanks for your story Saya :D
Thank you so much for your comment!ππ✨
Thank you so much for taking the time to comment, and I hope you will sleep OK tonight π✨
-that one anonymous
Jokes aside, yes, it would be indeed horrifying to be in this condition, and I hope this person in the story is fine now, and you and I remain sane for the rest of our lives too!⭐
(I am like that sometimes too though... Like I think I am saying something good and it doesn't make sense to others π€£✨) .
Thank you so much for your comment πππ΅✨
I thought to myself that if she is happy internally and functioning well on the surface level, who are we to say that her approach is wrong? Haha.
What is 'im glad i met you' in japanese terms? Is it an eerie saying?
And also, information from other people who are taking medication for their mental state seem to hate taking the medicine because of the side effects of grogginess and energylessness
I used to suffer from severe depression and take medication for it too, but in my case it did not help at all. It just made me stuck in this helpless, victim state where I felt I needed the medication and therapy etc. to feel "normal." So personality I don't recommend anyone to take this approach. My condition ended when I decided internally that I am totally fine and perfect as I am. I realized no one else but I have the choice to define who I am and I know I am f*cking amazing. π✨ But each person is different. I am sure for some people, taking medication is enormously helpful.
I checked the original Japanese text again, but "I am glad I met you" is just a normal phrase (εΊδΌγγ¦γγγ£γ) and it doesn't sound eerie at all.
Btw I also just remembered that the renowned Yayoi Kusama has suffered from schizophrenia since her childhood, and she has always gotten her artistic inspiration from her delusions.
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yayoi_Kusama
What was your drug of choice? If you dont mind me asking.
The story reminded me of an artist featured on the YouTube channel "blind dweller'. He featured an artist who had schizophrenia who mirrored that story of someone controlling his mind from afar and his art during the time explained his delusions. You should check it out. π
https://youtu.be/wgSBtXNJjhs
Amazing work. And it seems that creatives just cant become creatives without some kind of underlying mental illness. Thank you for exposing me to her works. Her work in infinite spaces reminds me of tripping on magic mushrooms
Probably my medication wasn't so strong since I could just quit it cold turkey and no problem. π✨
But I was such a miserable person and I saw no hope in myself or in my future. I hope anyone reading this will feel a bit better knowing that you can get out of that kind of state. It might not be easy at first but if I could do it, anyone can.
Wow he sounds like an amazing artist! I will certainly check him out. Thank you for sharing the info!ππππ✨
But for those who are stable, it's actually fascinating. They know there are voices and there are certain rules for their family and friends, like do not call the person from the other room, always make sure to show yourself before talking/calling the patient. If at public places like schools, don't tap the person from behind, always make your presence known. But apart from those, they've managed to be full members of society.
Also culture influences a lot. If you are schizophrenic and grew up being scared with horror stories or by the media, they will usually appear as hallucinations, but if you grew up in a chill home, slow living, etc, or your country's folktales are more on fantastical and magical instead of scary monsters, the hallucinations are quire tolerable.
I am impressed with the ways people learn to deal with their condition.
I wonder if there are any societies which treat schizophrenics as someone with special abilities, like sharmans. Just had a thought.π✨
I am just thankful I had only mild depression and never needed to take any medicine.
Feels like I'm cursed to have Arthur Schopenhauer's outlook on life (I relate with that grumpy-looking philosopher). Still can't get rid of this ζ¨ε (deeply held resentment) in me, yet I manage to keep it at bay.
Holding onto resentment does nothing but harm your own self. It will do nothing to someone whom you are holding resentment against.
Whatever it is, just let it go. Remember you are much greater than your unpleasant circumstances. Keep smiling ππ⭐
Thank you so much for your comment!
Thank you for the recommendation. π
You are intelligent and wise like Russell, so you can certainly learn to be like him too!
You are very welcome!ππ✨
people so often regard schizophrenic and other hallucinating people as frightening or childish, and it really does them no favors. there are ways to respect someone's delusions without encouraging them; whats important is that the person feels frightened or unsafe and to try and help with that.
i dont think this story is scary, i think it's really encouraging! im glad that woman managed to figure out her life so shes happy.
I agree with you and I hope she continues to be happy!